The day after the conference, I
marched into the office and informed our HR manager I was going to take the
deal from Sun Horizon. Sylvia, my HR manager, was a very bemused person by the
end of the day because I was not alone. Not even close.
By the end of the day, most of the
girls in the company joined me in signing on to Sun Horizon. By the end of the
week, over 80% of the girls had agreed to join Sun Horizon. To say this was
surprising was an understatement. At a meeting of all the girls who were willing
to join, Sylvia openly admitted that she thought Sun Horizon would be lucky to
get 50% of the girls. She then uncharacteristically joked that this shows how little
a girl like her knows. We all laughed at the joke.
According to Sylvia, the takeover was
a done deal and Sun Horizon would make a public announcement in two weeks’
time. During this period, Sun Horizon would implant some changes in the office
and any girl who changed her mind could approach her. I would admit to being
anxious at these proposed changes but to their credit, Sun Horizon tried to make
the transition as smooth as possible.
First they install air filters in
the building that gave off the same smell as what they had in the auditorium. Then
they announced that from then on, all girls must address all males as “sir”.
They also encouraged the men to address all females as “girls”, no matter what
position the girl currently held.
At first, it was weird as hell. We
had junior male clerks addressed female executives as “girls” while female
managers like Sylvia were addressing men working for them as “sirs”. It was a
soft launch of the new regime and I guess this was Sun Horizon’s way to get
everyone used to the fact that gender was more important than positions or
capabilities.
However soft it was, the
underlining idea of male superiority was unmistakable. What was an order for
the girls was framed only as a suggestion for the men, but if you thought
people would be questioning and complaining about the unfairness of it all,
then you would be wrong.
Such questions just seem
unimportant. Every time I tried to seriously think about why I agreed to sign
on to Sun Horizon, the problem just goes away. Breathing in the air of the office
and a wave of contentment would come over me. Things were going just as well at
home.
At night, my sleep was dominated by
dreams of me being in a burka or wearing a niqaab. I would be alone and I would
be wearing a burka or niqaab. I could be walking in the streets, in the
countryside, or even on a beach but I would be walking alone and looking for
something. Most of the time, I would wake up without finding this something but
sometimes, I would find what I was looking for; a man.
A man would show up in my dreams
and I would have this urge to kneel before him and bow my head to the ground. I
would show the man my submission and he would accept me as his slave. The men
that showed up in my dreams came from all shapes, sizes, age and ethnicity and I
do not know any of them save one; Salim.
In these rare occurrences, Salim
would appear with his 2 wives standing behind him. I would knelt and bow but
unlike the other men, he would not accept my submission immediately. Instead,
one of his wives would walk to my back, a cane would appear in her hand and she
would use it on my body. If I stood up, ran or even moved, Salim would reject
me and I would wake up in frustration. If I took the punishment till he was pleased,
I would awake feeling refreshed, satisfied and happy.
In some ways, the strange dreams
helped me at work. Even though there were two weeks to go before the takeover, the
work culture in the office had changed drastically. On paper, the changes by
Sun Horizon had been slight but as people put them into practice, things became
different. In simple terms, although no one said we had to do it, once the
changes became practice; girls in the office became more submissive to the men.
Girls began to adopt a “speak only
when spoken to” rule with the men. If the men asked for something, we reply. If
they didn’t, we kept our mouths shut in their presence. Girls began to move
around the office with their head down and when a man and a girl crossed each
other in the corridor, the girl would move to the side, leaving the center to
the man. At least, that’s what happened at first.
I don’t know who started it, but a
few days after the practice began, girls started to stop and turned to face the
wall. Only when the men passed them did the girl began to move off. If the men
didn’t move, the girl would crabwalk along the wall pass the men. Only after
passing them would she turned and walked normally.
It also became normal for the girls
to get coffee for the men. The man, usually seated at his cubicle, would turn
to the girl nearest to him, and ordered the coffee. No matter what the girl was
doing, she would drop it and go get the coffee for him. This quickly became the
norm in the office and before the first week was out, girls would be handling
everything the men needed from coffee to photocopying of documents.
Not everything was to the
disadvantage of the girls however. As the day of the takeover came nearer and
nearer, the company slowly but surely shifted more work to the men. Some men
grumbled of course but having a girl at their beck and call largely muted any
disagreement they had.
Within the two weeks transition
period, this arrangement, work for men and service for girls, became accepted
practice within the office. Men stayed in their cubicle and do the work while
the girls would handle any miscellaneous tasks given to them. More than one person
in the office mentioned that it was as if every 3-4 men in the office were
sharing a secretary between them.
Personally, I thought it was a lot
more going on than that. I was serving 3 men in the office during this
transition period and felt a joy whenever one of them told me to do something.
This sense of joy did seem strange to me but at the same time, I didn’t really
care about it. I mean why mess with a good thing?
The girls who refused to sign on with
Sun Horizon were of course horrified at the developments in the office and they
protested with management. However since they were less than 20% of the female
workforce and they were all leaving within two weeks, their complains were
ignored.
As the days passed and the day of
the official takeover came near and near, I became more and more excited. I
couldn’t wait for the day when I could only wear the niqaab and greet my male
co-workers on my hands and knees. To my slight surprise, I wasn’t the only one.
Every other weekend, we girls would
frequent a bar where we would unwind with drinks, dance and music. That
weekend, after a few tequilas, one of the girls spoke about the dream she had
been having. In the dream, she was walking in a grass field and it was windy. She
was wearing a thin transparent veil when a strong gust of wind came and blew
her veil away.
Her veil was gone and she felt as
if a part of her soul was too. She frantically ran after the veil but the wind would
always keep it just out of her reach. After a long chase, she would knelt and
cry in frustration. The wind would die down and the veil would fall to the
ground. If she stood, the wind would pick up again. To get the veil, she would have
to crawl to it. Sometimes she did it on her hands and knees; other times, she
would crawl on her belly. She would crawl to the veil and grabbed it. With her
veil in hand, she would put it on and only then would she felt whole. Only
then, when it was safely over her head, would she feel complete.
I was alarmed when I heard her
story. It was different but at the same time eerily similar to my own. Then
another girl started to talk about her dreams, and it was as if a dam had burst.
Soon everyone was exchanging stories about their dreams and the veils they were
wearing in them. It was scary that we all had similar dreams but at the same
time, strangely comforting. I was not alone and I was not the only looking
forward to the day when I would be wearing the niqaab. All the girls were now openly
admitting that that they were also looking forward to the day. I found that I was
not a strange weirdo. I was part of a group of women who had the same dreams
and aspirations.
It was a very comforting thought to
have.
I was even happier a few days later
when Sylvia announced that Sun Horizon had sent over our uniforms and we girls
would be sent for the fitting. It was less than a week before Sun Horizon would
publicly announce the takeover and our company acceptance of their bid. The day
of the takeover was coming and I couldn’t wait for it to arrive.